Yesterday school was cancelled. Josh was home. The weather was gross. I cried for the whole of my forty-five-minute bath. My water was cold and my heart was all anxious because I was past due on well, just about everything.
Eyes all puffy, I ran my errand. Hours and hours later, a kind lady overlooked my tardiness. God smiles on me, but not in an I-told-ya-so kinda way, more in an I-love-ya-girl kinda way.
I am relieved. Even though it's nine past midnight and John is laying on the living room floor in front of me playing with a toy tiger and not sleeping, I take heart. Yes, and I have peace.
My life is in no way what I thought it would be. World changer. Mover. Doer. Active. Make it happen. I am not. I can not.
My life is wonderfully un-special.
I am making peace with that fact.
For it is in ordinary where God meets me.
I can understand this more than you will ever know. Mine turned out like I had hoped, kinda...I just didn't realize what that really meant...how ordinary it would be. Thank you for such an honest post. I loved this.
ReplyDeleteFunny how life just has a way of doing its own thing sometimes.....
ReplyDeleteThanks for writing - this makes me want to know you and to befriend you and that I should be so lucky to get to hang with you.
I agree. Life can sometimes feel like it is just ordinary. But remember that you are building memories and children and that is always extraordinary!! You are changing the world just by being in it and by doing what you do.
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